Liza Golden-Bhojwani decidiu mostrar o que aconteceu com o seu próprio corpo quando ela parou de lutar contra ele a fim de se enquadrar em um padrão de beleza específico. A modelo postou uma comparação de antes e depois desse processo para encorajar as mulheres a se aceitarem mais.
A little flashback Friday action for you. This caption will be long and won't fit, so if you'd like to read please find the rest in the comment section….The left side was me at the start of the peak of my career. My first proper fashion week where I was actually the size I needed to be. I was booking amazing shows that one never thinks they actually could, walking with girls who I once looked up to, it was a serious adrenaline rush…but after fainting one night in my apt whilst preparing one of my very low cal meals (I think it was 20 pieces of steamed edamame if I remember correctly), I called it quits with the diet and workout regime I was put on and decided I could do it on my own. I thought to myself, I can still be this thin, but I'll just eat a little more so I don't feel so horrible. Well, eating a little more turned into eating nearly a bag full of almonds, which then turned into eating full size meals, which then turned into a full blown binge. I was craving every single food you could imagine and I was giving in to every craving even though I knew this was such an important time in my career. I made it through NYFW okay, no one had noticed any weight gain, but by the time I had gotten the LFW I could see the pounds starting to show both in the mirror and on the measuring tape, but I kept quiet obviously not wanting to sabotage myself. I found myself going to the grocery store and picking up raw vegetables to try and make up for the near two week binge I had in NY, but I didn't see any weight coming off no matter how "healthy" I was eating and no matter how many workouts I fit in. MFW came and I knew I was bigger and by bigger I mean a 35.5in hip rather than the 34.5in hip I started with in NY, I played it cool and just pretended everything was normal. I did end up booking shows, Dolce & Gabbana being one of them. Which I afterwards received online criticism about my thighs looking fat…Anyways PFW came about, and I found it impossible to resist those chocolate croissants 🙊 I went on many a casting with one exclusive option being on my schedule, but after meeting the client I knew the reason for me not nailing the gig, my size…
Ela explica que depois de passar mal em uma noite por causa das dietas extremamente restritivas, em que fazia refeições de apenas 500 calorias, decidiu abrir mão das orientações e tentar, por si só, manter o seu ‘peso ideal’. Acontece que essa tentativa teve o efeito contrário, e ela passou a ter uma relação compulsiva com a comida.
“Eu não sabia por que eu não conseguia manter as dietas e as rotinas de exercícios. Eu pensava que eu era fraca, que eu não me importava muito ou que não queria isso [a carreira de modelo] o suficiente. Eu me culpei de novo e de novo, falhando em entender o que acontecia”, escreveu ela.
I can't believe that this time next week I will be in London, working. Last year this time, I had just gotten married and been enjoying all our wedding celebrations with friends. I never planned on starting to work again. I never thought I would be able to face the industry I had been in for so long, but felt I had failed at so incredibly. But then out of the blue one day, I found myself saying, "okay, this is it, you can do it again, focus, diet strictly, and workout like a beast so you can get that body back and get back to working." You know how it goes, it takes you 3+ months to get in shape, but takes you just a week to start losing that perfect muscle tone you have been working so hard on. It's quite frustrating. All I ever wanted was to be a naturally small girl. Naturally thin. The girls who were just BORN for this shit. They were born to fit in every damn thing perfectly. God how many years I wished that upon myself. But then I realised, that would never be me, I would never be the size 0-2 girl who can just be that way without having to slave away at it… I have come to terms with it and accepted it as you may have noticed in my previous posts. I have moved on from the obsession of fitting into the standard perfect model mould. And I have decided to make my own mould, my own shape, my own personal being. Again, I know I am not perfect. I am not perfect physically, mentally, or emotionally. I am really not sure WHO is. I have been through my trials and tribulations, where I really just lost hope in myself, life, and the world… But I would like to share with you that even the most broken and imperfect people can see the light at the end of the tunnel. One day, somehow, there is always hope for a positive outcome in each and every one of our lives. Photo credit: @thirdeyejedi #newbeginnings #positivevibes #loveyourself #riseabove #bodypositive #effyourbeautystandards #thisisme
Ela passou por mais um período de dedicação trabalhando duro para ter o corpo que, naquela época, ela considerava o ideal, mas mesmo assim não conseguiu trabalhos no mercado. Liza, então, foi à Índia para se conhecer melhor e repensar o seu estilo de vida, e voltou ao trabalho com uma mentalidade diferente. Desta vez, ela decidiu não lutar contra o seu corpo. “Eu parei de me forçar e ouvi o que o meu corpo tinha a dizer. E foi isso o que eu fiz. Aos poucos, o meu corpo foi tomando a sua forma natural”.
Agora, a modelo diz que se exercita e come bem não por um trabalho, mas por ela mesma. “Eu mereço ser feliz e me sentir realizada. Todas nós merecemos. Talvez eu tenha sido criada para compartilhar essa história e a mensagem de amor ao corpo para todas as mulheres que estão brigando com isso por aí”. Liza entre nesse debate ao lado de nomes como Ashley Graham, que quebrou paradigmas ao ser a primeira modelo curvilínea a desfilar para Michael Kors, e Hunter McGrady, que brilhou recentemente nas Sports Illustrated.